Our Journey with Autism: A parent's guide

There are good days and bad days.  Most days, I forget I even have this blog....unfortunately.  But, I need it.  I need a place to put my thoughts; Autism related or not.  But....it all usually comes back to that.  My life revolves around it; consciously, unconsciously, subconsciously....it's there.

Take for instance my job.  It is the single most stressful thing in my life: even more than Autism.  I have no feet, no direction, no perameters, no structure; yet I"m expected to get things done, run a restaurant, plan events, deal with staff, computer issues, guest issues, manage the ordering, do all of my admin duties; ALL without any help other than my trusted service leads.  (We just got a new GM.  Thank you Lord!  Truly!  Sarah is her name and quite a gem).

By the way, I was supossed to do all of this with little to no error after being in the company for months.  Two of those months without a GM, very little to no direction, dileniation of duty or much help in the day to day BS. 

By the way: my husband is out of work and we are homeschooling!  Whoo hoo!

I can't take it any more.  I"ve had it up to and over "here."  I know I have made honest and true errors, but come on.....give me a flippin break.  I can't be "emotional" here or "cry" because it's "baseball."  No crying in baseball!

I'm just tired.  I give up.  Don't know where to turn.  I"d rather eat bon bons, drink and watch stupid tv shows on netflix and escape right now.  Ok, a little protein and salad so I don't gain a ton of weight....but I need help.  Can't do it anymore.  So tired....so grustrated, so done in....

Just want something to change, etc.  Don't know what it is...but need some help.  Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.  Love to all! 

Krista